My GoFundMe one last time…

Hi! My “campaign” isn’t going so well. I haven’t been posting it in too many places. I understand that seeing these things can a hurtful reminder of how hard you work for what you have. 

I hear that. I can’t work anymore, so I’m just going try to ask for this bit of help for a final time.

Things are changing slightly since I’m not going to reach my goal and it turns out that car isn’t as reliable as we thought.

My thoughts are that if I cannot make my goal to get out to NJ, I won’t be able to get that car, or fix it to make it reliable. I’m looking into other options in Portland, which would ultimately be more expensive. Either way, if I can reach this goal, I will be able to have a car, which is the intention.

I don’t feel comfortable posting this campaign on Facebook after seeing a lot of peoples’ opinions on GoFundMes recently.

Short story: I’m agoraphobic, have PTSD with dissociation, have chronic pain, can hardly leave the house, everything has declined/taken a nosedive. A car was offered to me to repair a familial relationship that ended in the death of someone, I can’t afford to get it.  A car would give me freedom to leave my house without relying on others and I want to re-learn self-sufficiency.

You can read more about it at the following link.

 I appreciate your time reading this. 

xoxoxoxoxo

nikki

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To all women.

What I want for my birthday is for people to stop telling women, any women, that their experiences are invalid. I am a woman. My experience as a woman is valid. Your experience is valid. Your feelings are valid. Your emotions are valid. Your trauma is valid. Your anger is valid. 

Hear each other. Listen to each other. Talk about your feelings. Talk about your experiences. Use non-violent communication. If you don’t know it, consider learning it. If you know it, talk about how powerful it can be. Set boundaries. Be self-aware. Own your conflicts. Utilize your allies.

If you don’t love yourself, ask for help. We have elders. We treat old our elders like shit in this country instead of learning from them. Learn from your elders. You may think their politics are bunk now, but respect their experiences.

Don’t expect to be nursed through your processes. Give yourself time to heal. Give yourself time to learn. Give yourself and others the space to make mistakes. Remember that you also make mistakes. Remember that you will be right a lot of the time. Remember that you will be wrong a lot of the time. Remember that being a woman in this world is traumatic. 

Ask questions. Don’t be hurtful. Research. Work on your shit. Don’t let anonymous people on internet websites bully you. Remember love. Remember feminine power. Remember that misogyny and the patriarchy are not bullshit. Remember not to let the misogyny trick you into hating each other. If it happens, remember that you can ask for help. Keep your privilege in mind, whatever it may be.

Remember that there are many kinds of women. Remember intersectionality. 

Don’t be shitty. Don’t silence anyone. Don’t be abusive. Don’t instill fear in each other. Own your shit. 

This entire Tumblr will self-destruct in two days.

I am sad for all of us. I am sad that none of us, no matter who we are, feel confident in talking about our experiences in 2013.

I am sad that this medium creates so much room for abuse. I am sad for every woman who receives abusive communication on this website. Protect yourselves. Ask for help with it, it’s invaluable. 

If you want to keep in touch with me on the internet, I have a blog. http://divinehysteric.wordpress.com. 

xoxox

nikki

If anyone would like to contribute, it would mean the world for me. I definitely don’t expect to get the whole $600, but even if I had a total of $100 of donations, i could buy the plane tickets now before they get really expensive… <3 <3 <3  Thank you to the wonderful folks who have donated so far! I will send you things once I return. cocoku: wehunger: First, this is embarrassing for a lot of reasons.  Second, I am asking for help for half of a cost. I am trying to come up with the other half on my own, and I’m about 1/4 of the way there.  Third, If you are the type who has access to any extra money, and you want to help an agoraphobe (me) with psoriatic arthritis (currently manifesting in some of the most severe joint pain I’ve ever had) gain access to a CAR, and actual CAR, one that will get me out of my room on my own, enable me to go places, leave places, etc… Please consider donating to my GoFundMe, where I am attempting to raise half the cost of this entire process, which is $600. Any little bit helps.  Thank you so much for looking at this. xoxox nikki Help Nikki get mobile!
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If anyone would like to contribute, it would mean the world for me. I definitely don’t expect to get the whole $600, but even if I had a total of $100 of donations, i could buy the plane tickets now before they get really expensive… <3 <3 <3 

Thank you to the wonderful folks who have donated so far! I will send you things once I return.

cocoku:

wehunger:

First, this is embarrassing for a lot of reasons. 

Second, I am asking for help for half of a cost. I am trying to come up with the other half on my own, and I’m about 1/4 of the way there. 

Third, If you are the type who has access to any extra money, and you want to help an agoraphobe (me) with psoriatic arthritis (currently manifesting in some of the most severe joint pain I’ve ever had) gain access to a CAR, and actual CAR, one that will get me out of my room on my own, enable me to go places, leave places, etc… Please consider donating to my GoFundMe, where I am attempting to raise half the cost of this entire process, which is $600. Any little bit helps. 

Thank you so much for looking at this.

xoxox

nikki

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First, this is embarrassing for a lot of reasons.  Second, I am asking for help for half of a cost. I am trying to come up with the other half on my own, and I&#8217;m about 1/4 of the way there.  Third, If you are the type who has access to any extra money, and you want to help an agoraphobe (me) with psoriatic arthritis (currently manifesting in some of the most severe joint pain I&#8217;ve ever had) gain access to a CAR, and actual CAR, one that will get me out of my room on my own, enable me to go places, leave places, etc&#8230; Please consider donating to my GoFundMe, where I am attempting to raise half the cost of this entire process, which is $600. Any little bit helps.  Thank you so much for looking at this. xoxox nikki
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First, this is embarrassing for a lot of reasons. 

Second, I am asking for help for half of a cost. I am trying to come up with the other half on my own, and I’m about 1/4 of the way there. 

Third, If you are the type who has access to any extra money, and you want to help an agoraphobe (me) with psoriatic arthritis (currently manifesting in some of the most severe joint pain I’ve ever had) gain access to a CAR, and actual CAR, one that will get me out of my room on my own, enable me to go places, leave places, etc… Please consider donating to my GoFundMe, where I am attempting to raise half the cost of this entire process, which is $600. Any little bit helps. 

Thank you so much for looking at this.

xoxox

nikki

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